2 weeks…

… After surgery and I have my baby back for the day. 🙂 I’ve still not picked her up from the floor but I’ve managed with the help of a bumbo chair, her bouncy chair and her cot. She’s a wee chatterbox and squeaks and squeals. Love her to bits. 🙂

Hospitalised…..again

Beginning to think it’s a monthly thing these visits to hospital… Well Jess is doing grand but me?? Not so much.

Had to go back in last week for Emergency surgery to remove a cyst on my ovary. I am now one ovary down as it was ‘all twisted up and buggered’ according to doctor. That explains the pain and not feeling too well. So now I’m home with a 5 inch scar on my bikini line and two wee scars on tummy as he tried to do keyhole first. Mum and dad are looking after Jessica as I can’t quite lift her yet. It’s not yet been a week since surgery and I need to give body time to heal. Miss the little scamp terribly.

Doc apologised as this was the problem in dec but didn’t see it on scan, and because I responded to antibiotics at the time all was well. Not to worry, it’s done now and I can fully concentrate on getting back on my feet. My pelvic floor has never been used so much in my life as I now have the sneezes too.

I can’t praise the care team enough. I was looked after super well and never felt like I was forgotten or being a pain. The nurses and doctors all understood my position and were very caring with me. A lot of them recognised me from dec which was nice and made me feel much better.

How do I feel about all this? Well, to be honest I’m fine, I keep waiting on a huge downer or tears or something but actually I’m okay. I know Jess is in the best place, I know I need to get better, I know it needed to happen and I pray that it’s all over now. Positive thoughts are the way forward. Bubba and me will be back on the road in no time, painting the town red and having all the fun of the fair! 🙂

A wee trip away

I went on a wee weekend trip

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Jessica came too

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Yes as you can see Jessica needs a lot of stuff to go away for a weekend. 🙂
We headed up to Dundee, stayed with my brother and his girlfriend, which was just fabulous. Such a great and also weird feeling of coming home and giving her over to someone to feed. I actually ate breakfast with both hands and on Saturday had a long, relaxed soak in the bath as she was out a walk. It was great.

Took her into my work on Friday. I am so proud of her. She behaved like an angel, was totally bashful and shy, giggly and smiley and went to everyone. Folk commented on how content she was. I beamed with pride because we did that! Me and her together!! What a team. 🙂 it was good to catch up with old pals and remind myself what it is like to be just me again. Although a whole new completely different me! I can’t say what’s different, it’s Jess. She has changed me, chilled me out, makes me smile. I’m not sure I get these folk who say they want ‘me’ time all the time. ME is a mum to Jessica, always and forever and that person doesn’t need to be with her 24 hrs and can enjoy time away from her but I’ll never stop being Jessica’s mum. I don’t feel I’m making sense with this bit of the post, I know what I mean though.

Spent time catching up with friends on Saturday and Sunday. She behaved at the restaurant and slept all the way home. I definitely know I’m a lucky lucky mum.

Oh and she is now sleeping all night. From last week.