Last single girls day

Well today was a day and half!! I had planned a trip to Glasgow to meet up with a couple of pals for lunch. At the last moment I also decided to treat myself to a super douper pre pregnancy haircut at Tony and Guy. So, I got up, had shower, breakfast and left in plenty of time to park then waddle to the salon.

Upon reaching the grand city I got to the car park, took my token, and parked the car ONLY THEN to realise that whilst I had lifted my handbag, bottle of water and phone I had left my purse at home!!! I tell you, I was close to tears!! I started to panic, could feel the tears coming to my eyes, couldn’t work out what to do! Should I cancel haircut and go wait for friends? Borrow money for lunch and car park? Should I go to bank and see if i can withdraw money, even without any form of id? Should I try and get out the car park, but I did not know if it was manned? I had Β£1 in my handbag and an hour and half to kill till I was meeting friends! I couldn’t walk round shops for that length of time, i’d be in agony! As you can tell, so many thoughts and no answers so I did the only sane thing before I was in full panic/ breakdown mode- I called my mum!

She was great, I can’t believe she and dad drove up to Glasgow to give me my purse. She knew how important the haircut was, how good it would make me feel and how important it was to meet up with friends. What I can’t believe is that in a few weeks I’m going to be that person for someone. I’m going to be the only sane thing to do- call me??? What will I know?? I only hope I can be half as good a mum as mine is, either that or baby knows grannies number too. πŸ˜‰


Pregnancy endings!!

Well as I enter the final, hopefully, three weeks of pregnancy, I wanted to take a moment to reflect on all the symptoms/side-effects/niggles of ring pregnant. Mostly in case I forget them but also just to have a wee list before these posts become all about little Peanut!! So I’m just going to list them in no particular order. Its not meant to be a moany post just a record of the things a body goes through. Apologies to those who may be squeamish as some are a wee bit personal. πŸ™‚

So although I was never sick, I felt sick most of the day for the first 10-14 weeks. Along with this I had strange tastes, including everything very bland and basic. Like plain chicken and rice, or super noodles (even though I thought I loved them I could hardly finish a bowl) I tried everything ginger, the tea worked as did ginger biscuits and ginger cake.

This one has been all pregnancy. The first thin was going off tea and coffee!! I mean I could easily have had ten cups of tea a day then all of a sudden boom!! It turned my stomach. This one lasted for months and even now with three weeks to go, my tea has to have some sugar in it and be weak. Coffee I can drink again but only have a cup a day.
Breakfast bars- I couldn’t get enough.
Milkshakes – as I near the end I find myself drinking about 4 pints in a day and half. Nesquik or Crusha, it doesn’t matter as long as its strawberry!
Lucozade- for the first 8 weeks when I was off tea I think I was getting my caffeine fix from Lucozade Orange. I could easily have three or four bottles a day till a friend pointed out the amount of caffeine in them!
Vegetables- I went off broccoli! As well as other veg. Again the thought turned my stomach- that was prob from 14-24 weeks.
Poor appetite- again I’d say all pregnancy but def after the break up, even now I struggle to feed myself as I have no appetite, however if food is put down I realise I’m hungry. When I was working it was my appetite that went and it did stress me out loads.

This is a bit personal and gross so I won’t go into it in depth. πŸ™‚ I didn’t realise just how much you become aware of all bodily functions when pregnant. If its not the constant running to the loo to wee, it’s the wondering, “when was my last BM?” There was a time in the middle of pregnancy when the loo runs became less frequent but not now. I feel like its the most used room in the house! πŸ™‚
Wind- there was a time, probably about 12-18 weeks when I couldn’t control the burping or passing of windy pops!! Yuck!

Not been a problem till these last few weeks, easily solved with gaviscon by the mouthful.

Well I’ve told you of the pelvic girdle pain and that’s been the highlight. 😦 now its just general aches and pains with weight of baby.

From the first wee flutterings that felt like butterfly kisses to these huge digs and slides its doing now, all have been amazing!! They have been what has kept me going, kept me from breaking down and weeping. It’s impossible to explain them. Now they are quite jerky and also feel like baby has hiccups as they are sometimes regular. Peanut still feels like it prefers the right side.

This is a true killer!! At the start it was due to stress and loo runs and feeling sick, then it was due to my life being catapulted in a new direction, now I guess it’s to do with nature preparing me for life with a newborn!! Yeah right, who you trying to kid here nature??? For the past umpteen weeks I can only sleep for two hours at a time, now it’s reduced to an hour. Then I just got wake up, turn over, rub aching hip/knee get comfy again and realise yep I need to pee!!! I’m totally prepared nature- bring it on! πŸ™‚

I’m sure I might come back to this post to update at some point when I remember other little niggles. I guess the biggest one is the unbelievable amazingnesss of the miracle of life. I mean I don’t do anything consciously, apart from look after myself which I’d do anyway, and yet my body can create, nourish and grow a child!! It’s way beyond cool!!

Pamper Day

Today i was treated by my big sister to a surprise. I haven’t been sleeping much recently (it is 5.40am) and I think she took matters into her own hands. I was told to be at her house for 12pm.

I arrived to find the table set for lunch, me, my sis and two nieces. πŸ™‚ It was lovely. My youngest niece was waitress and got me my drinks and food. She had also chosen some black forest gateau from a delicious local bakery. There was candles and strawberry and marshmallow kebabs. yum yum.

After lunch niece took over again and gave me a new hairstyle along with a glittery manicure. I was driven to a secret destination by my sis. She had booked me in for 75 minutes of pampering at a local therapy room. It was bliss..

I had a facial and a hand massage. Total relaxation. It really was bliss. exactly what I needed. Although as tonight can show it hasn’t really aided to the lack of sleep situation but hey ho!! πŸ™‚

But the day didn’t end there. It was back to my sisters house with my niece who entertained me for a few hours, including practising her violin and playing at shops. Then my brother joined us later on by surprise and we had another lovely meal, watched some tv and chilled.

All in all a very relaxing day with sis and niece.

Pain, glorious pain!!

As stated before at my 20 week scan I asked the nurses about some pain I’d been feeling. I was diagnosed with Symphysus Pubis Disorder, otherwise known as Pelvic Girdle Pain. Description from the pelvic Partnership: (

PGP (Pelvic Girdle Pain) is a condition which affects a large number of pregnant women (up to 1 in 4 in some studies). It was commonly known as SPD (Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction), but this implies that only the symphysis pubis is affected, which is not usually the case.

There is a wide range of symptoms and the severity also varies between women. It is important to remember that PGP is a common and, in most cases, treatable condition. It can be safely treated in pregnancy.

PGP is assessed, managed and treated in the same way, whatever the cause and whenever it started. So if you have pelvic pain during or after a pregnancy, ask for treatment.


SPD is increasingly known as Pelvic Girdle Pain, and because this is the term used in many recent studies, this is what we will use on this website. It describes the condition more accurately because it implies that all the pelvic joints are affected, which is the case for most women.

My experience started out as pain in my coxic bone at the end of the day. I’d sit down on the train and it would feel like my tail bone was on fire. 😦 It was then difficult to stand up, The doctors at the hospital were very good and took me upstairs and examined me thoroughly in order to rule out any other problems. At final diagnosis I was told not much to be done but rest and an appointment was made for me at the physio. Unfortunately my life took the drastic turn before I could be seen by a physio and I had to re-register with midwives in the new area and get referred again to physio.

I was finally seen by one in the summer who gave me some gentle pelvic exercise and showed me how to get in and out of bed etc. During the summer the pain was bearable as I had every second day to rest and recuperate. I really felt the full brunt of PGP when I went back to work in August.

The plan had been to work for 4 weeks then start mat leave on the 16th Sept. I went to work on Monday and smiled through the pain, caught up with colleagues I hadn’t seen all summer, that first day was fine, however by Thursday I was a very different person….

…how best to describe this pain?? well by Thursday it felt like I had been riding an old Victorian bicycle all day over cobbled streets then when I stood off the bike a huge Clydesdale horse had kicked me right between the legs. Imagine that??? Every step hurt. It was s ore to sit down, sore to stand up and in a job where I was up and down all day dealing with pupils this was very upsetting. The other, more worrying side effects of this though were the fact that I wasn’t sleeping, it was too painful. After not sleeping then needing to get up for work I was Knackered, in a way I’d never been before. I had no appetite, no energy, wasn;t eating properly and then getting stressed out because this was the beginning of my 3rd trimester I was meant to be eating more to allow my baby to put down layers of fat. Toast and beans was not a suitable dinner every night at this stage!!

I got in touch with my midwife and made an appointment to see the doctor. Unfortunatley this meant I had to leave work and driver for 2.5 hours, so after discussing options with work it was decided I’d speak to the doc about the possibilty of getting signed off. It was not the best thing I wanted to do but I had to face facts: I was not well enough to be at work and give 100%. My replacement managed to come in and start two and half weeks earlyt so I had time to do a hadn over with all the paperwork then I was off, back down home to rest up and wait for peanuts arrival.

That was two weeks ago and in that two weeks I’ve seen the physio again who was very helpful. “yes well there is no quick fix or cure, you’ve had this pain at 20 weeks, it’s likely to be worse at 34” Basically the best thing I can do is rest, but not too much. Keep mobile, bust not too much. πŸ˜‰ I’ve got a support band to wear when walking and if it gets much worse I need to go back and discuss the possibility of crutches.

How is it affecting me day to day??

Well I feel like I’m in pan all the time, mostly to be honest its a 1 or 2 out of ten then when I stand up it increases to a 9 for a minute then settles again. The other day I walked to a corner store to pick up milk, only a wee 5 minute walk but it took about 10 minutes and by by the time i got back I was in a lot of pain, an 8 or 9 for a good twenty minutes. Turning over in bed is probably the worst. It’s like a military manoeuvre. Knees together, tighten my trans-abs, move shoulder and knee together and turn. Now for a squirmer and mover when asleep like me this has caused many problems. Usually me waking up in agony. Oh and i need a pillow between my legs when asleep too.

I cant lift anything too heavy and have been instructed by physio to only do light housework so my mum has been roped into helping out round the house lots. I also can’t really do shopping anymore as pushing the trolley hurts and carrying bags hurts so for the next few weeks shopping will be a family exercise again. πŸ™‚ Its all good though – a great excuse to spend heaps of time with mum and dad and family.

I have to say though that although this pain has been a bit debilitating over the past few weeks, I can;t really complain. I’m off work, I have nothing and nowhere I need to be, except midwife appointments. I can sleep when I need, rest when I need and get up and potter to my hearts content. I know friends who have had terrible 3rd trimesters and tbh most pregnant women I speak to have some sort of discomfort or pain at this time.

I’m keeping my fingers crossed that this PGP is only pregnancy related and once we meet peanut it disappears.

Farewell to work

So, my maternity leave has officially started now, 2 weeks earlier than expected due to pelvic girdle pain. Β (which I will post about) I had 2 days handover period with my replacement and then said farewell till next August. Β Biggest question is How Does It Feel??

How does it feel?? Well to be honest I’m not sure its sunk in yet. Β I really don’t have to worry about my work, there is someone else very competent in the post, the work will carry on without me, decisions will be made on a daily basis that I might agree with, might disagree with and the bottom line is that it doesn’t matter! well not to me sitting here right now it doesn’t. πŸ™‚ Β 

Its weird handing over a job you’ve worked hard at for years, built up and cared for. Β I felt like there was loads I wanted to tell my cover but at the same time I had to allow her the freedom to make the job her own for the time she will be there. Strange doesn’t quite cut it.

What I did miss was saying cheerio to all my colleagues, and I feel that I will miss them all greatly as I’m not living in the area where I work but 2.5 hours away. 😦 I’m going to keep in touch via email and facebook and this blog obviously and I’m sure we will have catch ups in Glasgow. Β I will, once baby is old enough, make the journey back up to see everyone, but I guess it feels far away at the moment. Β Β 

One of many major life changes I can put a tick next to, I’m excited about how many more are just around the corner……

(still to switch work e-mail off my phone though. :))